Go Away, God.

I have a little secret that I'd like to share with you. Now, before I do I don't want you getting all pissy with me or even to cheer me on. Because, regardless of your feelings towards God, what I'm about to say remains the same. Ok, here it is. It is more than Ok to be angry with God. People approach God in different ways when it comes to dealing with such traumatic events. And there is no wrong approach. Some people, whether atheist, agnostic, or a believer, humbly get down on their knees, pray for mercy and a miracle and put their faith in God. That's a very hard thing to do. Some, even the strongest of Christians, blame God and turn their backs on him. Me, personally? I was more in the middle. I knew this was a battle that could be fought without God, but not won. But I also felt hurt and betrayed. My Dad was, and still is, one of the most kind hearted and loving people that anyone has ever met. He fears and loves God. He prays and goes to church. He lives his faith out loud. He displays Christ's love on a daily basis. Why him? How could such a shitty thing happen to him? How could God allow this to happen? It wasn't fair and it wasn't right. And I had no problem letting Him know. I told God to leave me alone. To let me be, but to never leave my Father alone. I needed time to process how this could happen, but I also needed Him to work miracles on my Dad. I was angry. But it was Ok. You know why?
Because, He is a big God. He can take it. Yell at Him. Cuss if you want to! Tell him you hate what he did to you or a loved one. Tell Him you don't think you can ever forgive Him. Tell Him everything. When he created you, He gave you the ability to be angry. He also knows how you're feeling and He'd rather you be real with Him then falsely and halfheartedly pray to Him with anger in your heart.
Be real with God. So many times in Psalms David got angry with God. Told him exactly how he felt. That God had betrayed Him asking Him why he let such horrible things happen. But God never stopped loving David. He still blessed him and showed him His favor. Just like God has showed His favor on my Dad and our family. We've been hurt and we've shed thousands of tears. But we've danced, felt joy, and praised God far more.